The quiet phase before everything begins to change
It happened after one of those phone calls
that had been carrying a new heaviness for a while.
My father avoided clarity.
A familiar pattern of distance and withdrawal.
And I hoped again.
Tried again.
Held on to something that cost me more than it was worth.
He hung up. Without a word.
My body reacted faster than my mind.
Pressure in my chest. Shaking. Tears.
And then I felt this sentence inside me:
“This is not how anyone gets to treat me.”
After that, it became quiet.
Not the silence after an argument –
but the kind of silence where something begins to settle.
I knew: nothing would be the same.
Not because I had made a decision.
But because I had stopped fighting against myself.
The in-between phase is not a standstill
The time that followed felt unclear.
Between loyalty and clarity.
Between “but it’s family” and “where do I stand?”
I didn’t react right away.
I went into the woods.
Breathed.
Wrote.
Waited.
Today I know:
This phase was not a standstill.
It was preparation.
What feels empty is often rearranging itself in the background.
What feels weak can be a first moment of rising.
Self-trust doesn’t begin with a big step.
It begins with an inner boundary.
You can find more thoughts on this in my article about New beginnings in self-trust
Gentle reflections for your in-between phase
- Observe before you decide.
- Ask yourself: Peace outside—or peace within?
- Listen to your body. It often knows earlier than your mind.
Your Takeaway:
When something feels empty, it doesn’t mean failure.
It may be the moment your inner foundation is realigning.
If you find yourself between an ending and a beginning,
I also share thoughts like these in my Newsletter “Die Words & Soul Post” (German only for the moment)
